A Thousand Thoughts

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Again I Return

I look into
Your wide blue eyes
With love and hate in each blink
And wonder why
I'm head over heels in love again
And why I can't break my fall

For all the things you've done
And all the tears you've caused
I'm still drawn
Like a star to a black hole
I'm still drawn
Even though you're tearing me apart

Despite my best intentions
And beyond my self-control
My emotions form on their own
I try to rationalize my thoughts
To explain to myself why
I'm running back and not the other way


I don't know why, I can't explain
Why I keep doing this to myself
Again and again
My head and heart won't agree
I can't just do what's good for me

I tread in dangerous waters
Despite the safe harbor
I have left behind
And I struggle to swim
Drowning in emotion
Struggling for air
Trying to keep my head above water

You tell me you love me
And for some reason
I still believe you
I seem to have lost my memory
And my mind
When it comes to you

I close my eyes
Seeing only the darkness of my mind
And reflections of dreams
Wishing the pain would end
That I didn't want what I do
And that I wanted what I have

I don't know why, I can't explain
Why I keep doing this to myself
Again and again
My head and heart won't agree
I can't just do what's good for me

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